Trouble in "Paradise"

All my life I have been kind of a loner. When I was a teenager all my friends were older than me. They drove and did things a whole year before I did. So I did a lot of things on my own. Things like: shopping, movies, afternoons out. Well I realized today that I am none the wiser when it comes to picking friends. Only now I just dont have me to think about, I have my daughter. Either I feel I am not smart enough or not sophisticated enough. At least that is what it seems to me. (What some of these people dont understand is that sophistication has nothing to do with it. This girl went to the country club when she was younger.) I thought I was alone in this thinking until my wonderful daughter asked me if I felt like a 5th wheel, because she certainly did. Hmmmm. What can I do to change my situation? It is not them, it is me. I need to look at my choices and see where I am going wrong. Prayer, lots of prayer. That will be my answer. In the mean time while I am seeking God's answer on this one, I will spend my time with my beautiful daughter and laugh!!!

What does God have in store for us now?

Today was the last day of our church we started 4 yrs. ago. After long prayers and talks with God my husband believes that it is time for our church to close. God gave him a peace about this. He knows that something bigger and better is up the road for us. He has spent many hours of preparation and study. God has put us in so many peoples lives when they were struggling through family members dying and hospitalizations. Thank you Lord for letting us minister to them. We were able to help many confused and lost teenagers in our time as a church. Thank you Lord for that. God has tremendously blessed us through our ministry. I just can't wait to see what he has next for us to do!!!

Some more confirmation

Yesterday my daughter and I spent time with our friends, laughing, taking pictures, painting ceramics, and having dinner. We could not have done this if she was still in public school. Granted this was not "school" but she was learning and reinforcing her manners in a public place. How else can she get along with others in the real world if she doesn't get to practice it??

Now onto cooking. Yesterday morning I also did some cooking before we left. I made some peanut butter granola and some cookies. The cookies are hard to keep around. Most were gone by the time we got home. Hubby and son ate almost all of them. I went through my Gooseberry Patch Christmas Cookies cookbook and noted the one I want to try this year. There are also some great mixes for gifts!!

Apple pies are on the agenda for the weekend and maybe some more fudge. Of course the cookies too. But those are getting in the freezer before the men get home!!! O maybe a few cakes too!

If anyone wants recipes let me know.

OK so who owns Gooseberry Patch cookbooks? I own 1. Yes, only 1. That is not to say that I would not like others but times are hard especially for homeschooling families with 1 income! I love my cookbook. I received it from a friend for Christmas a few years ago and I think I have been through it about 10,000 times. LOVE IT!!!! I have Christmas Cookies. Love it, Love it, Love it! Oh have I said that I might Love it???? I make copies of the tags to put on my gifts every year and I use the labels too. Please get one if you do not already have one! They are such an inspiration!!!

GO GOOSEBERRY PATCH!!!

Set Backs

Well my daughter had another set back this week. Tuesday evening she had a seizure. The first one in 7 months. She remembers NOTHING!!! Even me. Everything is being reintroduced to her. Very frustrating to her and me. I just can't imagine what it is like not knowing anyone or anything. She is my hero! So for the next few days no school because she has to "get her file cabinet back in order". That's how the Dr. described her problem. Its all there but someone or something came in and removed all the files and through them up in the air. Now she has to find them and put them back in order. I wish I could do it for her.

Tonight she will see some of her friends for the first time since the seizure. I hope they are not going to be mean. If they are we will leave and not go back. Tomorrow we have class. Luckily she will be in my class all morning so I can be with her and "protect" her. There is really only 1 person that I am worried about hurting her. He can be so mean to her at times and other times he is a sweetie to her. I guess I will have to wait and see. I will also pray before going tonight and tomorrow that they will all be kind to her! I need to get some more info on her problem!!!!

Enjoying the little things

I was sitting here thinking on everything I needed to do today. I then said to myself that I sure am glad my daughter is able to go with me. Light Buld moment!!!! If she was still in public school she would not be able to go with me on my little excursions. She would be stuck in a classroom all day and then come home for a few hours with the family and put her nose in books for school and then go to bed and do it all over again. Not really spending time with each other.

Today we are grocery shopping, paying bills, going to the bank, and meeting up with some homeschool friends for tennis, laughter and conversation! How can life get any better than that??? We will have PLENTY of laughter at the tennis courts. No one but my daughter has played in almost 2 years. And then it was only to goof around. We are all very very very much ametuers!!!!

I am extremely happy that God has given me the courage and knowledge to homeschool! Thank you Lord for these blessings!!!